Wednesday's Woe
The Train Wreck of Our Grief
I dreamed this morning of my little girl, about 4-years-old in the dream, on vacation with us, wanting to wear her princess gown to play with her friends...
But as I was unpacking it for her to wear, she ran out onto the hotel's patio, and jumped over, holding onto the railing.
As I stiffened my body bracing it against the railing for strength, I carefully yet fearfully reached over to hopefully pull her up to safety,
but...
she let go...
and fell the long distance to the ground.
As my heart was panicking that she would be hurt, I awakened...
Does the terror ever stop...?
I know the ever trying to save continues...
As our lives seem ever to be in limbo after losing our child, I thought this morning...
It seems when I lost you, I not only lost you,
I lost me too...
...For I still seem to live in Limbo-Land.
And yet...
Charles Spurgeon captures the devastation of our loss amidst the tender love of our Lord so well in his quote. It seems that despite the worst that has happened, somehow God intervenes as only His Love can do...
“I bear my witness that the worst days I have ever had have turned out to be my best days. And when God has seemed most cruel to me He has then been most kind. If there is anything in this world for which I would bless him more than for anything else it is for pain and affliction. I am sure that in these things the richest tenderest love has been manifested to me. Our Father's wagons rumble most heavily when they are bringing us the richest freight of the bullion of his grace. Love letters from heaven are often sent in black-edged envelopes. The cloud that is black with horror is big with mercy. Fear not the storm. It brings healing in its wings and when Jesus is with you in the vessel the tempest only hastens the ship to its desired haven.”
And his following quote rings so true...
“The Lord's mercy often rides to the door of our hearts on the black horse of affliction. Jesus uses the whole range of our experiences to wean us from earth and woo us to Heaven.”
Quotes from Charles H. Spurgeon, thanks to GoodReads.com
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