Saturday, May 7, 2016

Saturday's Sayings - Mother's Day Messages of Love from Across the Veil…







Saturday's Sayings


 Mother's Day Messages of Love from Across the Veil… 














Messages of Love
To, and From, 
Our Child in Heaven…





Parent to Child in Heaven:



Now that you are gone, 
my heart is broken.
But because you were once here,
it is completely filled with Love.




~~~~~




Child in Heaven to Parent:




Don't weep at my grave,
For I am not there,
I've a date with a butterfly
To dance in the air.
I'll be singing in the sunshine,
Wild and free,
Playing tag with the wind,
While I'm waiting for thee.

~Angels of the Heart
Picture, Author Unknown



(This particular writing makes me tear up; I can just see my Merry Katherine saying this…)




~~~~~




 Parent to Child in Heaven...




I heard your voice in the wind today
and I turned to see your face;
The warmth of the wind caressed me
as I stood silently in place.

I felt your touch in the sun today
as its warmth filled the sky;
I closed my eyes for your embrace
and my spirit soared high.

I saw your eyes in the window pane
as I watched the falling rain;
It seemed as each raindrop fell
it quietly said your name.

I held you close in my heart today
it made me feel complete;
You may have died...but you are not gone
you will always be a part of me.

As long as the sun shines...
the wind blows...
the rain falls...
You will live on inside of me forever
for that is all my heart knows.


~ Bonnie Breuilly-Pike, 
"Under Orion's Sky...You Live" from "Dancing with the Spirits of Shadowplay"

"Holding Hands" painting by Judy Mackey




~~~~~




Child in Heaven to Parent:




I'm no longer by your side,
But there's no need to weep
I've left sweet recollections
I'm hoping you will keep.

Eternal joy and memories
stay in our hearts forever,
strengthening our special bond
That parting cannot sever.

And if times of loneliness
bring sorrow and dismay,
don't despair, for I am there
Just a memory away.


~ Rita S. Beer
Painting by Claire Clements





~~~~~




 Parent to Child in Heaven...






When I close my eyes
You are here
Your charisma, your cheer, your tenderness
I feel you here

When I close my eyes
You are with me
Your spirit, your beauty, your charm
I feel you with me

When I close my eyes
You are in my arms
Your warmth, your compassion, your love
I feel you in my arms

No matter how far apart
Nor what the circumstance
I feel you here with me, in my arms - always
When I close my eyes


~ W. Jason Duncan 
Painting by Hyatt Moore




~~~~~




Child in Heaven to Parent:





ALWAYS WITH YOU

Your heart may be heavy and aching,
Now that I'm no longer here.
But, though you may shed many tears,
Let memories banish your fear.

My arms are no longer around you.
My lips cannot speak of my love.
But, I'm with you in spirit each day,
As I look down from Heaven above.

The house may be silent without me.
It doesn't mean I can't be there.
And, every night that you sleep,
Our love, in your dreams, we still share.

As you continue, alone on earth,
I'll be with you each step of the way.
I can still be the strength that you need,
To carry you through each new day.

Although, I know you can't see me,
Our spirits are joined as before.
So, whenever you feel uplifted,
Know it's me just loving you more.

In Heaven, we're given a gift
To still tend to the ones left behind.
So, smile when you think of me.
I remain in your heart and your mind.


~ Marian Jones
Painting, Author Unknown




~~~~~




 Parent to Child in Heaven...




I remember everything about you
Your voice, your smile, your touch
The way you walked, the way you talked
The way you looked at me, meant so much

I remember all the words you said to me
Some funny, some kind, some wise
All of the things you did for me
I see now with different eyes

I remember every moment we shared
Seems like only yesterday
Or maybe it was eons ago
It's really hard to say

You are gone from me now
But one thing they can't take away
Your memory resides inside my heart
And lights up my darkest days

~ Author Unknown
"Mother and Child" painting by Claire Szalay




~~~~~




Child in Heaven to Parent:





You think I've gone, that I am dead, and life has lost it's will,
But look around, I am right there, living with you still
I watch your tears, I feel your pain - I see the things you do
I weep as well, each time you cry, my soul, it lives with you

It gives such joy to hear you laugh, and do the things you do
And when you smile o'er by gone days, I smile right with you too
For we're still one, just you and me, one mind, one soul, one being
Walking forward into life, though only you are seen

And in the stillness of the night, when the pain it really starts
Stretch out a little with your mind and draw me to your heart
For I am always right in there, always by your side
For you have been, all my life's days, my joy, my love, my pride.

~ Author Unknown
"Souls Journey" painting by Janice Chrysler


~~~~~




Parent to Child in Heaven:




It seems like only yesterday
I rocked you on my knee,
With dreams about the future and
What you were going to be.

You were so bright and happy
Such a precious little boy,
You gave your love to everyone
And filled our hearts with joy.

Strangers would admire you
And stop to say hello,
"He'll break a lot of hearts," they said,
"In twenty years or so."

But less than twenty years from then,
What they said came true,
As we were forced against our will
To say goodbye to you.

A life so short and unfulfilled,
With so much left to go,
"Why, oh why?" we ask ourselves,
When we all loved you so.

Life shows us many options,
But whichever path we take
The destination's still the same
Whatever choice we make.

So many questions flood our minds,
"What if, and Why and How?"
If we had done things differently,
Would you still be with us now?

I don't know what the lesson was
That you were sent here to learn,
But now your purpose is fulfilled
It's time for you to return.

When I hear the phone ring
I expect to hear you say,
"Alright Mom? What're you doing,
Can I come 'round today?"

But you don't need to ask now,
You're with us every day,
Within our hearts, our minds, our souls,
Your memory will stay.

No fear, no pain or sorrow,
Can touch you anymore
But the love you've left behind,
Will live with us forever more.

~ Jan Andersen
"Mother and Child" painting by Karen Reitsma




~~~~~




Child in Heaven to Parent:





...But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before…

When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind…

There are rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time…

And when its time for you to go...from that body to be free,
Remember you're not going...you're coming here to me.

~ Ruth Ann Mahaffey
Painting, Author Unknown




~~~~~




Parent to Child in Heaven...





So go and run free with the angels
Dance around the golden clouds
For the Lord has chosen you to be with (H)im
And we should feel nothing but proud

Although (H)e has taken you from us
And our pain a lifetime will last
Your memory will never escape us
But make us glad for the time we did have

Your face will always be hidden
Deep inside our hearts
Each precious moment you gave us
Shall never, ever depart

So go and run free with the angels
As they sing so tenderly
And please be sure to tell them
To take good care of you for me

~ Author Unknown
"Angel Light" painting by Marina Petro

(Capitalizations of Deity pronouns, mine)










Thank you to The Far Side of the Rainbow/Facebook 
for all of the writings and paintings used today!

You may find the individual entries below:



#1)
https://www.facebook.com/farsideoftherainbow/photos/a.265765910132193.59124.259827837392667/1075743665801076/?type=3&theater


#2)


#3)
~Angels of the Heart
Picture, Author Unknown



#4)
~ Bonnie Breuilly-Pike, "Under Orion's Sky...You Live" from "Dancing with the Spirits of Shadowplay"



"Holding Hands" painting by Judy Mackey



#5)
~ Rita S. Beer
Painting by Claire Clements



#6)
~ W. Jason Duncan 
Painting by Hyatt Moore



#7)
~ Marian Jones
Painting, Author Unknown



#8)
~ Author Unknown
"Mother and Child" painting by Claire Szalay



#9)
~ Author Unknown
"Souls Journey" painting by Janice Chrysler



#10)
Writing: ~ Jan Andersen
"Mother and Child" painting by Karen Reitsma



#11)
Writing: ~Ruth Ann Mahaffey
Painting, Author Unknown



#12)
Writing: ~Author Unknown
"Angel Light" painting by Marina Petro

https://www.facebook.com/farsideoftherainbow/photos/a.265765910132193.59124.259827837392667/1008157489226361/?type=3&theater



Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Wednesday's Woe - "We're Collapsing Here!"






Wednesday's Woe

"We're Collapsing Here!"









"We're collapsing here!"

so the golfer said.
His was only a game of golf,
(For him--- no Master's coat received.)

(For us? Our child is dead!  
The worst a parent can conceive….)

"We're collapsing here!"
Yet, the Truth is what sets free.
My collapsing here…?
Is such suffering my Master's call for me?

"We're collapsing here!"
Such state taints all we do!
Yet…it seems that into such suffering,
our God calls all His saints…

"We're collapsing here!"
To die to self feels like sure defeat,
(But only in God's purview…
what we define as loss,
our God defines as gain!)
Drop the encumbrance of this world~
Our loss becomes God's gain!

"We're collapsing here…"
What if That is our true call?
We suffer the world's worst loss,
Yet, our child receives God's all!

"We're collapsing here,"
A golfer's response to a game
Yet in the true Game of Life
Our loss becomes God's gain...

Meaning is restored:
Lord, help me collapse in You again…




Poem - "We're Collapsing Here!" - Angie Bennett Prince - April 11, 2016
(the day after golf champion Jordan Stied lost the Masters' Tournament…)










Monday, April 4, 2016

♫ Monday's Mourning Ministry ~ You Were Always On My Mind







Monday's Mourning Ministry

You Were Always On My Mind






Coming to the end of Merry Katherine's birthday month, Tommy and I were listening to a variety of music in an attempt to bring some peace and comfort to our hearts. The music was entertaining and even comforting. But then we began listening to this song "You Were Always On Our Mind," written and sung by Willie Nelson in his poignant voice.

Both hearts melting into a pile, we fell into each other's arms and cried and cried... and cried some more; it was if our crying could not stop.

It has been 9 1/2 years after losing our baby girl, yet we are still thrown back to Square. One. 


We each cried so hard.

I had scheduled clients for the following day thinking that that date should be well past Merry Katherine's birthday date and that I should be in a fairly stable place to help others by then...

Well, I calculated wrong. . .

My eyes were so swollen they would barely open. Needless to say, I cancelled clients for the next day...

I am doing better today but of course, even as I write and post this song for you, I am crying again!






~~~





You Were Always On My Mind

~Willie Nelson



Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have...

If I made you feel second best
Girl I'm sorry I was blind
But you were always on my mind.
You were always on my mind.

Maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me,
Tell me that your sweet love hasn't died
And give me 
Give me one more chance to keep you satisfied
I'll keep you satisfied


(Musical Interlude)


Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

You were always on my mind

You were always on my mind



~~~





We parents, I think, do the very best we can by our children, but of course, there are always some things we think we could have done better when we look from hindsight. So the poignant words of this song pierce the very center of my heart and soul as I ever long to do more and more to nurture my baby.

It would be so nice if we could peer into Heaven and see the incredible peace on our beloved one's face, but that is where we need the Lord's help to live by faith...


Sweet blessings to each of you...as you grieve your precious child. May our Lord bind every wound of your hurting heart day by day by painful day...



~~~


This Scripture is our comfort, for it assures us that our broken hearts are very important to God... so important He sent Jesus to rescue us, to save our crushed spirits, and to bind and heal our brokenness:




A portion of our Lord's words found in Luke 4:18 KJV as He was indicating that His coming to earth was for the very purpose of fulfilling of the prophecy He quoted from Isaiah 61:1: 
"He has sent Me to bind up the brokenhearted."


Isaiah 61:1-3 KJV
Old Testament
1)The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; (H)e hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;
2)To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;
3)To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.
 
New Testament (over 400 years later)
Luke 4:18-21 KJV (Jesus speaking)
18"The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because (H)e hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; (H)e hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,
19To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD."
20And (H)e closed the book, and (H)e gave it again to the minister, and sat down. And the eyes of all them that were in the synagogue were fastened on (H)im.
21And (H)e began to say unto them, This day is this scripture fulfilled in your ears.

{Highlights and some capitalizations, mine}



Thank You God, and Thank You Jesus that You sacrificed everything out of love for us and out of love for each and every one of our precious "babies."








https://youtu.be/R7f189Z0v0Y

Pictures, thanks to Bing Images


Sunday, April 3, 2016

Sunday's Sorrow ~ Good Mourning!









Sunday's Sorrow

Good Mourning!






Good Morning!
(Welcome again to my world of sadness.)
Or shall I say, "Good Mourning!"
As I celebrate my child who brought me gladness...


Tears flow~
As I remember my child's and my love for one another…
Must they slow?
No! Such is the life of a Grieving Mother!


Good Mourning!
Do not let the world tell you your tears are bad ~
Our tears are simply God's reminder of what we had ~


Good Mourning!
Every grieving mother knows
Cherishing our child's love is worth being sad!
Good Mourning!
So until we reach Heaven, our tears must flow!


The tears that represent our sacred treasure,
others ~who are blind~ will call "fools gold"!
Good Mourning!
As our Lord said, "Blessed are those who mourn" ~
We, of all people then, are blessed beyond measure!


Good Mourning!



Poem - Good Mourning! - Angie Bennett Prince - April 2, 2016




~~~~~





Grief is not a disease;
it is not an illness;
it is not depression.
It is, in fact,
an expression
of love.
Grief can only 
be a disease
if love is.


~Dr. Joanne Cacciatore, 
fellow psychotherapist and grieving mother






Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Happy Birthday in Heaven Merry Katherine!






Happy Birthday in Heaven Merry Katherine!





Your birthday brings back memories
Of laughter and of tears
Of all the celebrations held
Throughout your precious years

As you're now watching over me
I hope that you can see
How much those memories we made
Will always mean to me

I'll always cherish times we had
And smile just at the thought
I hope you know the magnitude
Of joy your life here brought

On holidays and birthdays
It's so hard to be apart
Like every day that falls between
Your memory fills my heart

You're with me now where e'er I go
You're part of all I do
I'll celebrate your special day 
And the gift of knowing you





Happy Birthday, precious (((((Merry Katherine)))))! 

Though you are forever 19 and forever held in our Father's arms, we hold you so close in our hearts on what today would have been your 29th birthday here on earth. 

We love and miss you today and everyday and will for the rest of our lives and forever after that! 

Love to you from 

Mommy, Daddy, Rollin, Stephanie, Nathan, and Ashley heart emoticon
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With thanks to
(Card lyrics written by ~kp)
Out of the Ashes / FB


Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Wednesday's Woe - War Between the States: When Words’ Effect Berates…






Wednesday's Woe

War Between the States:

When Words’ Effect Berates…


The Importance of Not Comparing a
Death of Order (such as Child Losing a Mother), 
complicated though that may be, with a 
Death Out of Order (Mother Losing a Child)








War Between the States


Your state: Denial— 
My state: Under Fire
For still loving my dead child.


Clueless to my pain,
Doing what you do—
I cannot be around you.


Simply loving you—
I reach out to care,
But you stab me with a spear!


Blind to Child-Loss pain:
My heart you disdain—
(Its vulner’bility scares…)


Then words start to fly:
War declared ‘tween you and me
Slaughtering my heart…


Love must rear its head:
Declare— Our fellowship, “Dead!”
Camellias blooming blood red…





Moral of Story:
(No more words impart
To further grieve th’ mother’s heart!!!)


Interesting Note, the Japanese word for Red Camellia, Tsubaki, or 椿, has the meaning, 

“In Love, Perishing with grace”! 

So Apropos!





~~~



Having just read the book _life after the death of my son: what i’m learning_ written by grieving father Dennis Apple, I was inspired to turn again to poetry, using both sides of my brain to try to capture the essence of what just had transpired between me and a family-of-origin member whose words were extremely hurtful to me.* 

Dennis Apple, on page 163 of his book, so aptly says the following words in regard to writing a haiku about some of our Death-of-Child experience: {Uncannily, it also describes the essence of my attempted conversation with the family member who was pushing me to move on, and stay away from (what he deemed as) “unnecessary” pain, and “unbeneficial” pain.)

“There are many who would think this exercise morbid. If you feel it would be helpful to you, do not let their feelings about it discourage you.”

Amen, brother. Amen!







Regarding the writing of the above haiku, I make the following notes to some of the exceptions taken to the typical haiku poem originated by the Japanese:

*Inspired by Dennis and Buelah Apple, I am using the “Haiku” style poem, although I am varying lines of 5- and 7-syllables in an attempt to describe some aspects of my grief (leaving out as Dennis and his wife often did, the usual haiku ingredient of using a seasonal word in at least one of the triplet lines (although I did use a seasonal phrase in my final triplet), as well as my own choosing to leave out the traditional format of the 7-syllable line being the middle line of the triplets. I also use some rhyming which a typical haiku rarely does).

Camellia notations and picture from

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hanakotoba

(found at https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hanakotoba )