No words I write can ever say,
How much I miss you every day.
As time goes by the loneliness grows,
How I miss you, nobody knows!
I think of you in silence, I often speak your name.
But all I have are memories and photos in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow. No one sees me weep.
But the love I have for you,
Is in my heart to keep.
I’ve never stopped loving you—I know I never will.
Deep inside my heart, you are with me still.
Heartaches in this world are many,
But mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches as I whisper low,
"I love you and I miss you so."
The things we feel so deeply, are often the hardest things to say.
But I just can't keep quiet any more, so I'll tell you anyway.
There is a place in my heart, that no one else can fill.
I love you so, my precious girl
And I always will.
~Thank you to Grieving Mother, L. L.
"And can it be that in a world so full and busy the loss of one creature makes a void so wide and deep that nothing but the width and depth of eternity can fill it up!"
~Charles Dickens (1812-1870)
From Grieving Mothers:
You are not the same person you were before. Too much has changed within and without. Do not try to fall back into the same patterns because you will only struggle to fit into a lifestyle that no longer fits. In order to live this new life, you must first identify the areas of your life that you struggle with, and then take steps to learn how to move forward in those areas. For instance, you might find yourself in new situations that you are not comfortable in without your loved one, or you might have new responsibilities that you do not know how to fulfill because your loved one used to take care of them for you.
Here is where you need to grow. God will provide what you need to experience true growth. Pray for wisdom as you develop new patterns of living.
Gretchen says, "My husband could talk to anybody about anything for any length of time, and I just always let him do it. I wasn't a big talker, but the Lord gave me some of that talking ability after he died. And I've been grateful for that because I was very happy in just letting my husband carry the conversation with people. Now, every time I go to something that I really wished I didn't have to go to, I just call on the Lord. The Lord is so faithful. Every single time I get through it and wind up enjoying it."
By God's grace you can be changed. You do not have to try and be the person you were before, because that is not possible. Instead . . .
"Put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator" (Colossians 3:10).
Lord, even though I don't necessarily want to change, I know that I must. Give me confidence and wisdom in the areas that I struggle with. Amen.
~Grieving Mother, K.H.A.
"It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone."
Instead of birthday gifts for me
Come take some things away.
There's so much here that I don't want
So please don't give... just take.
Take away my knowledge
Of funerals, and urns, and graves.
And take away the guilt I have
For not being with him to save.
Take away these inward screams
That resonate his death.
And take away my begging
To give him back his breath.
Take away this heartache
That leaves me living in pain.
And take away the last 2 years
To when this sadness came.
Take away this loneliness
That stays throughout the year.
And take away this horror
That just won't disappear.
Take away that empty space
He no longer occupies.
And take away these tears of mine
That forever fill my eyes.
Take away this silence
That reminds me that he's gone.
And take away my wondering
How things could be so wrong.
Take away my questions why
That cause never ending grief.
And take away my doubting
That has shattered my beliefs.
Take away most anything,
Especially his death...
But PLEASE don't take my memories,
They're all that I have left.
by Christine Ross
~Thank you Grieving Mothers for sharing
"Mourning is one of the most profound human experiences that it is possible to have... The deep capacity to weep for the loss of a loved one and to continue to treasure the memory of that loss is one of our noblest human traits."
A MOTHERS LETTER TO HEAVEN"
I SIT AND WRITE THIS LETTER
WITH TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY FACE
BUT I KNOW DEEP IN MY HEART
YOU ARE IN A SPECIAL PLACE
I THINK BACK TO THE TIME
WHEN GOD GAVE YOU TO ME
I HELD YOU IN MY ARMS
AS HAPPY AS I COULD BE
FIRST WORDS FIRST STEP FIRST SMILE
I WAS THERE TO SEE YOU GROW
YOU GAVE ME SUCH HAPPINESS
MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW
TEENAGE YEARS YOU HAD YOUR FEARS
BUT TOGETHER WE GOT THROUGH
IN GOOD TIMES AND IN BAD TIMES
I WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU
I WATCH YOU GROW AND LOVED YOU SO
SO PROUD OF WHAT YOU HAD BECOME
YOU WOULD ALWAYS BE MY BABY
AND I WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR MUM
THE DAY YOU DIED HOW MUCH I CRIED
MY HEART WAS BROKE IN TWO
HOW COULD I LIVE IN A WORLD
HOW COULD I GO ON WITHOUT YOU
BUT I KNOW YOU ARE STILL HERE
I FEEL YOU NEAR ME EVERYDAY
YOU LEAVE WHITE FEATHERS EVERYWHERE
I KNOW YOUR NEVER FAR AWAY
I SWEAR I HEAR YOUR VOICE
TELLING ME I LOVE YOU MUM
ONE DAY WE WE WILL BE TOGETHER
I KNOW THAT DAY WILL COME
REST IN PEACE MY CHILD
I SEND THIS LETTER WITH ALL MY LOVE
UPON THE WINGS OF AN ANGEL
TO HEAVEN UP ABOVE
KNOWING DEATH IS NOT THE END
HELPS TO EASE THE PAIN
BY HEAVENS GATE I KNOW YOU WAIT
TILL WE ARE TOGETHER ONCE AGAIN
~via The Compassionate Friends
Have Faith that things will get better.
And never Ever give up.
You may be feeling overwhelmed right now;
There may be so much chaos in your mind, that you can't think straight.
You may be feeling, confused, uncertain - maybe a little afraid.
Don't worry. It will get better. It is already getting better.
With every Positive Choice you decide to make;
Everything Positive you read, absorb, reflect on, meditate over.
Let your worries, anxieties and stress melt away.
Do not give them the Power to control your thoughts.
Everything Good is coming to you. Have Faith.
Sometimes it's when we hit Rock Bottom;
Is when we Realize that the only way is up.
Sometimes, it gets the Darkest just before Dawn.
The Prettiest Rainbows appear after the Biggest Storms subside.
Don't let any Cloudy Skies, fade the Beautiful light;
Of your Precious Soul.
Believe, and Know everything will be okay.
Focus on every Good thing that Makes you feel better.
And Build up Your own Positive Moments Step by Step.
Soon, it will Transform into Your Reality.
Be Strong and Follow your Bliss.
Have a Beautiful, Positive day. ♥
~ © Kiran Shaikh 2012
~via Grieving Mothers