Showing posts with label Death of a Child. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Death of a Child. Show all posts

Friday, May 3, 2013

Saturday's Sayings - "What Other Answer Would Suffice?"






Saturday's Sayings 

"What Other Answer Would Suffice?"











~Safehaven For Widowed




“For in grief nothing 'stays put.' One keeps on emerging from a phase, but it always recurs. Round and round. Everything repeats. Am I going in circles, or dare I hope I am on a spiral? 

"But if a spiral, am I going up or down it? 

"How often -- will it be for always? -- how often will the vast emptiness astonish me like a complete novelty and make me say, 'I never realized my loss till this moment?' The same leg is cut off time after time.” 





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~Safehaven For Widowed



“I thought I could describe a state; make a map of sorrow. Sorrow, however, turns out to be not a state but a process. 

"It needs not a map but a history...” 





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~Safehaven For Widowed



“No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing. 

"At other times it feels like being mildly drunk, or concussed. There is a sort of invisible blanket between the world and me. I find it hard to take in what anyone says. Or perhaps, hard to want to take it in. It is so uninteresting. Yet I want the others to be about me. I dread the moments when the house is empty. If only they would talk to one another and not to me.” 





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~Safehaven For Widowed




“If a mother is mourning not for what she has lost but for what her dead child has lost, it is a comfort to believe that the child has not lost the end for which it was created. And it is a comfort to believe that she herself, in losing her chief or only natural happiness, has not lost a greater thing, that she may still hope to 'glorify God and enjoy Him forever.' A comfort to the God-aimed, eternal spirit within her.  

"But not to her motherhood. The specifically maternal happiness must be written off. Never, in any place or time, will she have her son on her knees, or bathe him, or tell him a story, or plan for his future, or see her grandchild.” 





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~Hers to Treasure



“...My idea of God is a not divine idea. It has to be shattered from time to time. He shatters it Himself. He is the great iconoclast. Could we not almost say that this shattering is one of the marks of His presence?..” 



“Reality the iconoclast once more. Heaven will solve our problems, but not, I think, by showing us subtle reconciliations between all our apparently contradictory notions. The notions will all be knocked from under our feet. We shall see that there never was any problem.” 



“If my house has collapsed at one blow, that is because it was a house of cards. The faith which 'took these things into account' was not faith but imagination.” 



“I know now, Lord, why You utter no answer. You are Yourself the answer. Before Your face questions die away.  
"What other answer would suffice?” 











Pictures, thanks to ~Grieving Mother Dani, ~ Safehaven For Widowed and Hers To Treasure 
C.S. Lewis Quotes, thanks to goodreads.com

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Wednesday's Woe - Sibling Grief Too Abides...






Wednesday's Woe

Sibling Grief Too Abides...


“When you add us up, you always have to carry the one.”



My son was recently at home for a week,
Spent sweet time with him that left my stomach weak:
Hearing his saga, so much like mine
Tales of the heart so hard to define
When you've lost your little sister
(or your child), and cannot get over daily missing her...
Protecting our hearts (as they're woefully broken),
from potential hard hearts who treat souls like a token,
a token which could prevail their own ends,
a token which has no worth till it mends...
a token which has only one dimension
with no need at all for soulful attention.

Where are we grievers now to go
to be blessed and attended versus merely add to our woe...
His heart's cry pierced anew this mother's broken heart
To see another beloved child... by death be ripped apart. 

I thought it cruel that my son too does own
Some of the same depths of hurt as his dad's and my own...
What will break through this terrible pain
As grief still floods this family with its torrential rain?













Grief Quote, from the novel, Carry the One
Poem - Sibling Grief Too Abides... - Angie Bennett Prince - 6/24/2012


Monday, October 3, 2011

Tuesday's Trust - Empty - A Grieving Father's Poem





Tuesday's Trust

Empty

A Grieving Father's Poem



Empty



Empty faces in empty cars


I stop at the light and stare at their scars


Empty heart and empty soul


Used to know my way but I lost my role


Empty buildings on crowded streets


An empty bed as I pull up my sheets


Empty house that's not a home


Should I sell it now and learn how to roam


Empty children with blood shot eyes


My nights are empty as I sit and cry


Empty visions in my empty mind


Since I found him dead life's been so unkind


Empty hopes followed by dead dreams


Try to go to sleep but I'm wakened by my screams


Empty promises given in vain


A chump to the hustle so now I live in pain


Empty future with little hope I see


I pray to you Jesus please touch your Hand to me.




written 10/02/2011 by: Thomas Patrick Calvert









Picture - http://www.webstockpro.com/Stock-Photos-water+pump/
Poem by Tom Calvert, in memory of his son David (lovingly "lifted" from TCF, Atlanta)

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Tuesday's Trust - Betrayed by Authorities







Tuesday's Trust


Betrayed by Authorities





When you're at your most vulnerable because of the severe threat of possibly losing your child to a violent crime committed against him, you're at your weakest point, you are barely functioning, and you would like to think you can trust the authorities to do their job. What is the job of law enforcement if not to investigate allegations of criminal acts, wrongful acts, even acts that could be affecting a whole group of our at-risk children, all of whom are citizens of the local county. If you have a child who is confiding in you, his mother, of criminal acts that have been done to him as well as to other teens in your community, and law enforcement chooses to turn a blind eye and a deaf ear to the allegations, not even interviewing your child whose life is hanging in the balance, then whom are you as a parent to trust?



Your child's case appears to be totally mishandled, or virtually, not handled at all... You as a child-loss parent can barely function amidst your child's devastating physical losses, and you are running up against people who have been elected into sacred positions of trust who are not even practicing the core protocols of investigations. What are you to do? What is your community to do? And what hope do the children-at-risk have if the powers-that-be choose not to intervene on their behalf? What if law enforcement chooses not to enforce the law, and chooses not to defend the teens from blatant criminal violations?


The system at that point is not working. Are there compromised people at its helm? Is there corruption within? Is it a case of total incompetence? What is it?


Your child by this time now succumbs to his injuries. You are now a child-loss parent. How are you as a child-loss parent supposed to figure out how to handle the improper legal proceedings when your whole world has been torn out from under you?





We went through some court proceedings with our child's death in a different state than our own. A grand jury was held, and duties were carried out. It was painful. Things were blatantly promised to us by the legal authorities that these officials did not fulfill. But we felt the grand jury was fair, and that their logic was reasonable. I cannot even imagine if all of these people had refused to carry out their jobs. It is unfathomable.





So when jobs are NOT being carried out, affecting the outcome of your child's case, and perhaps many more children in the same at-risk predicament as your child, what is a parent to do, and whom are they to trust? Apparently we have such a case going on in our community now. Our hearts go out to the child-loss mother as we watch her child's case be bungled at best, if not totally sabotaged... We helplessly stand by, signing petitions to the courts to please initiate a thorough investigation...



What about you? Did you have investigations and court proceedings? Were you treated fairly? Were you okay with the way things were handled? Were you okay with the outcome?



Did any of you feel betrayed by the very people you thought you could trust?










Picture thanks to FotSearch

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Monday's Mourning Ministry - Grief Is a Tidal Wave... / From Where You Are ~Lifehouse








Monday's Mourning Ministry


Grief Is a Tidal Wave...


~


From Where You Are


~Lifehouse






The Agony of Grief



What is there to say about grief?

Grief is a tidal wave that overtakes you,

smashes down upon you with unimaginable force,

sweeps you up into its darkness,

where you tumble and crash against unidentifiable surfaces,

only to be thrown out on an unknown beach, bruised, reshaped.

Grief means not being able to read more than two sentences at a time.

It is walking into rooms with intention that suddenly vanishes.

Grief is three o'clock in the morning sweats that won't stop.

It is dreadful Sundays, Mondays that are no better.

It makes you look for a face in the crowd,

knowing full well the face we want cannot be found in that crowd.

Grief is utter aloneness that razes the rational mind

and makes room for the phantasmagoric.

It makes you suddenly get up and leave in the middle of a meeting,

without saying a word.

Grief makes what others think of you moot.

It shears away the masks of normal life

and forces brutal honesty out of your mouth

before propriety can stop you.

It shoves away friends,

scares away so-called friends,

and rewrites address books for you.

Grief makes you laugh at people who cry over spilled milk,

right to their faces.

It tells the world that you are untouchable

at the very moment when touch

is the only contact that might reach you.

It makes lepers out of upstanding citizens.

Grief discriminates against no one.

It kills. Maims. And cripples.

It is the ashes from which the phoenix rises,

and the mettle of rebirth.

It returns life to the living dead.

It teaches that there is nothing absolutely true or untrue.

It assures the living that we know nothing for certain.

It humbles. It shrouds. It blackens. It enlightens.

Grief will make a new person out of you,

if it doesn't kill you in the making.


~Stephanie Ericcson












"From Where You Are"


Official Music Video and Lyrics


{Please notice their "Dedication" at the end of the video.}


~Lifehouse




So far away from where you are

These miles have torn us worlds apart

And I miss you, yeah I miss you


So far away from where you are

I'm standing underneath the stars

And I wish you were here


I miss the years that were erased

I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face

I miss all the little things

I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here


I feel the beating of your heart

I see the shadows of your face

Just know that wherever you are

Yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here


I miss the years that were erased

I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face

I miss all the little things

I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here


So far away from where you are

These miles have torn us worlds apart

And I miss you, yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here





"Dedicated to the teens who have lost their lives in car accidents and to all those who loved them."






Thank you, Lifehouse. Our worlds will never be the same...












www.youtube.com/watch?v=TG4zXEO_7yA&feature=related
picture: http://coleyoakum.wordpress.com/2010/07/03/picture-a-day-18/
poem: http://www.sostucson.org/Articles/2_The_Agony_of_Grief_By_Stephanie_Ericsson.pdf

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Monday's Mourning Ministry - Cry Out to Jesus ~Third Day







Monday's Mourning Ministry


Cry Out to Jesus


~Third Day



First, I want to thank you for your prayers for me this past week when my computer got zapped. God graciously answered our prayers! All of my memory was indeed saved!!! Also, Apple honored my Applecare warranty that I bought the same day I bought my computer 2 1/2 years ago even though in my grief stupor, I did not register it online as I should have. How kind. So, Apple sent my computer back Saturday, completely restored and repaired, and completely covered by warranty! God is good. And you all are precious to me. I so thank you for your prayers! :)









Cry Out To Jesus


~Third Day




To everyone who's lost someone they love

Long before it was their time:

You feel like the days you had were not enough

when you said Goodbye.


And to all of the people with burdens and pains

Keeping you back from your life

You believe that there's nothing and there is no one

Who can make it right...


Chorus


And there is Hope for the helpless

Rest for the weary

And Love for the broken heart.

There is Grace and Forgiveness,

Mercy and Healing

He'll meet you wherever you are -

Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus!


For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on

They've lost all of their faith in love

And they've done all they can to make it right again;

Still it's not enough.


For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains

You try to give up but you come back again -

Just remember that you're not alone in your shame

And your suffering!


Chorus

There is Hope for the helpless

Rest for the weary

And Love for the broken heart -

There is Grace and Forgiveness

Mercy and Healing.

He'll meet you wherever you are -

Cry out to Jesus!


When you're lonely,

And it feels like the whole world is falling on you,

You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus -

Cry to Jesus!



To the widow who suffers from being alone

Wiping the tears from her eyes,

For the children around the world without a home

Say a prayer tonight...


Chorus

There is Hope for the helpless

Rest for the weary

and Love for the broken heart.

There is Grace and Forgiveness

Mercy and Healing.

He'll meet you wherever you are!


There is hope for the helpless

Rest for the weary

and Love for the broken heart.

There is Grace and Forgiveness

Mercy and Healing.

He'll meet you wherever you are

Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus!


Oh Cry out to Jesus,

Cry out to Jesus!



*****




I call on You, O God, for You will answer me.


~Psalm 17:6




The Lord is close to the
brokenhearted
and saves those who are
crushed in spirit.

~Psalm 34:18




As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for You O God.
My soul thirsts for God, for
the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
My tears have been my food day and night,
while men say to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"
These things I remember as I
pour out my soul;
how I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the festive throng.

Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me.
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise Him,
my Savior and my God.

My soul is downcast within me,
therefore I will remember You....

Deep calls to deep
in the roar of Your waterfalls;
all Your waves and breakers have swept over me.

By day the Lord directs His love,
at night His song is with me--
a prayer to the God of my life.

I say to God my Rock,
"Why have You forgotten me?
Why must I go about mourning,
oppressed by the enemy?"
My bones suffer mortal agony
as my foes taunt me,
saying to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"

Why are you downcast,
O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise Him,
my Savior and my God.

~Psalm 42



The hearts of the people
cry out to the Lord.
...Let your tears flow
like a river
day and night...
Arise, cry out in the night,
as the watches of the night begin;
pour out your heart like water
in the presence of the Lord.
Lift up your hands to Him....

~Lamentations 2:18-19










Picture: http://www.fotosearch.com/photos-images/hands-lifted_2.html
Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TAk8KBjB6Mo
All Scripture is from the New International Version