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Welcome! I am Angie B. Prince, child of God, wife of Tommy, mother of 3, Grief and Trauma Life Coach, Psychotherapist, and Mother Grieving. On 8/2/2006, our precious 19-yr-old daughter Merry Katherine was killed along w/ 2 other teens via vehicular manslaughter. Here I share as we agonizingly process our grief and trauma. Email: MotherGrieving(at)gmail(dot)com. Coaching (Tommy or Angie): Call 865-548-4four3four / Counseling (Angie in TN) 865-604-9nine9two. I pray God will minister to you here.
Blessed Christmas! Spending Christmas without Merry There are no halls decked with holly There are no peop...
He gathers the lambs in His arms and carries them close to His heart.
Isaiah 40:11b




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Christmas Eve
When Merry Left Christmas
How can I be "happy" at Christmas when everywhere
I look, I see the "Merry" with Christmas, yet her bed is bare?
We still get cards that put the "Merry" with Christmas, but
When her stocking remains untouched, I feel punched in my gut.
I look and I look with jingle bells ringing roun' ~
Yet you, my Merry… you're nowhere to be found!
For my Merry left Christmas 5 years ago--
Have people not heard; do they really not know?!
They hustle and bustle, and to the mall they do clammer;
When they see my tears, startled, they ask "What is the matter?!"
When my Merry left Christmas, the sparkle fell off;
Santa crashed his sleigh; the reindeers fell off;
The mistle- was kicked right off the -toe;
The candles lost their light, their bright, cheery glow;
The parents can't nestle all snug in their bed;
The tree is not up; the holly's lost its red.
The night before Christmas never stopped being dark;
Santa and his wife are depressed, so his sleigh he did park.
There are no reminders we have nothing to dread...
For our child is not here; she's not snuggled in her bed.
I call and I call her; I call her by name;
But each time I call her the answer's the same:
As dry leaves that on the silent ground do lie,
The quiet astounds me until I must cry.
I speak not a word; I pour myself into my work,
But still there's no Merry, so I cry with a jerk.
My Merry's not here, or at least she's not in sight;
So it's not a Merry Christmas, and it's not a good night!
But then I remember, on Christmas Day, her Savior came down,
He spread all His love, and even gave her a crown;
And though He was killed on that old rugged cross,
He saved my poor Merry from being forever lost!
For though He was spitefully killed with hate,
Up from the grave He arose, never too late
To save my dear child from death's worst fate.
So He reminds me she IS now by His side,
That she's really alive though indeed she had died!
So as much as I despaired that my Merry was gone,
He put Merry back in Christmas, for she's in the Christ Child's Home!
So now I exclaim, although my Merry's not in sight,
After my God graciously revealed to me His Light,
"Keep the Christ Child in Christmas; He came to fight our child's fight!
He conquered the Enemy; He saved our child's Life!
She is with Him forever ~ Christ has ended Death's Blight…
"So Merry Christmas to all, and to all a Good Night!!!"
In Loving Memory

3/29/1987 - 8/2/2006


"Jesus and the Lamb," 1982 ~Katherine Brown
Monday's Mourning Ministry
Jesus Had a Little Lamb
Come Thou Fount ~Chad Cates
On Merry Katherine's first year anniversary of her death, I wrote a poem trying to articulate some of what I saw happening in Merry Katherine's life at the time of her death. I put this poem in our local newspaper for her memoriam:
Jesus Had a Little Lamb
Jesus had a little lamb;
Her name was Merry Prince,
And many places Merry would go
Would make her Savior wince.
She followed Him to "the streets" one day
Which was against the rule;
It made the children laugh and play
To see a lamb so "cool."
But Jesus saw her heart that day
And said, "My child, you'll be My tool
To reach My lambs who've gone astray
Into the grasp of the Enemy, cruel."
He took her up to Heaven
To be with Him at last,
But when He ran to embrace her,
She cried, "But Lord, I wandered from Your path!"
He wiped her tears and held her close,
"My child, don't you understand --
I took care of your sins so long ago
In My most sacred plan.
"I loved you so and sent My Son
To die upon that cross
So that you and all My other lambs
Would never more be lost.
"Yes, My child, you wandered from Me,
But since you were Mine, I never did depart;
When you looked to Me to set you free,
I heard the cries of your heart.
"And now your story will be told
To many people young and old,
Of My amazing love and grace
Given for your soul.
"Together you and I work as a team
To fulfill your precious dream
Through other lambs who are still on earth
To lead your friends to their second birth
"So they can join us too some day
Freed from all their sins
And they will find that Life with Me
Brings Joy that never ends."
Jesus had a little lamb
Her fleece was white as snow
And everywhere that Merry went
His love was sure to flow.
And now she lives right by His side,
From Him never more to roam --
Content in His presence to abide
Safe in Her Father's Home.
Now that with God's help, His little lamb has
"fought the good fight, finished the race, and kept the faith,"
She may now be with Him in Heaven to gaze upon His face,
And ever live to praise Him for His amazing Grace.
Merry Katherine Prince
Safe in Her Savior's Arms
Isaiah 40:11
*****
For Merry Katherine's funeral, her two brothers, then 24 and 21 years old, helped me to choose the songs and pictures we would use for her funeral. Her older brother Rollin chose the very precious and sacred song, "Come to Jesus" by Chris Rice, for her. Her brother Nathan chose the following song so beautiful and apt at describing her love for the Lord and yet her struggle of being "prone to wander" as she explored life extravagantly, even if at times recklessly: "Come Thou Fount" by Chad Cates.
I have been so frustrated up to now because I looked and looked on You Tube and could not find Chad Cates' very anointed version of this wonderful hymn. I expressed my lament to my sons over time as they are so knowledgeable about finding things on the internet.
Upon my visit with my son Rollin, my daughter-in-law Stephanie, and my newborn grandbaby "Ellie" last weekend, Rollin informed me that he had shared my chagrin over not finding the Chad-Cates rendition with Chad Cates, himself! (Rollin, Nathan and Merry Katherine have all known Chad Cates personally because he had led the music for some of their church summer youth camps (held at the beach in Panama City, Florida); the church called these annual church camps "Sonburn").
Chad Cates graciously told Rollin he would put the song on YouTube for me! And so, today I get to share it with you! Here is the very inspired and poignant rendition of "Come Thou Fount" by Chad Cates as it was played at Merry Katherine's funeral on August 6, 2006:
Come Thou Fount
~Chad Cates
Come Thou Fount of every blessing
Tune my heart to sing Thy grace.
Streams of mercy never ceasing,
Call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet
Sung by flaming tongues above
Praise His name; I'm fixed upon it
Name of God's redeeming love.
Hitherto Thy love has blessed me;
Thou hast brought me to this place.
And I know Thy hand will bring me
Safely Home by thy good grace.
Jesus sought me when a stranger
Wandering from the fold of God,
He to rescue me from danger
Bought me with His precious blood.
O to Grace how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be
Let Thy goodness like a fetter
Bind my wand'ring heart to Thee.
Prone to wander Lord I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love.
Here's my heart, O take and seal it;
Seal it for Thy courts above!
Here's my heart, O take and seal it;
Seal it for Thy courts above!
~written by John Wyeth and Robert Robinson,
~adapted by Chad Cates
*****
The original hymn:
COME THOU FOUNT OF EVERY BLESSING
As written by John Wyeth and Robert Robinson
Come thou Fount of every blessing, tune my heart to sing Thy grace.
Streams of mercy never ceasing, call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet, sung by flaming tongues above.
Praise the mount! I’m fixed upon it, mount of Thy redeeming love.
Here I raise mine Ebenezer, hither by Thy help I’m come.
And I hope by Thy good pleasure, safely to arrive at home.
Jesus sought me when a stranger, wand’ring from the fold of God.
He to rescue me from danger, interposed His precious blood.
O to grace how great a debtor, daily I’m constrained to be!
Let Thy grace, Lord, like a fetter, bind my wand’ring heart to Thee.
Prone to wander, Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love.
Here’s my heart, Lord, take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above.

Painting, by artist Katherine Brown - http://www.christcenteredmall.com/stores/art/brown/jesus_and_the_lamb_black_and_white.htm#options
Poem - Jesus Had a Little Lamb - Angie Bennett Prince, July, 2007
Song, Come Thou Fount by Chad Cates - http://youtu.be/28bjLncPy6U