
Picture, thanks to ~Out of the Ashes
Welcome! I am Angie B. Prince, child of God, wife of Tommy, mother of 3, Grief and Trauma Life Coach, Psychotherapist, and Mother Grieving. On 8/2/2006, our precious 19-yr-old daughter Merry Katherine was killed along w/ 2 other teens via vehicular manslaughter. Here I share as we agonizingly process our grief and trauma. Email: MotherGrieving(at)gmail(dot)com. Coaching (Tommy or Angie): Call 865-548-4four3four / Counseling (Angie in TN) 865-604-9nine9two. I pray God will minister to you here.
Blessed Christmas! Spending Christmas without Merry There are no halls decked with holly There are no peop...
He gathers the lambs in His arms and carries them close to His heart.
Isaiah 40:11b

"We cannot always trace God's hand, but we can always trust God's heart."


Monday's Mourning Ministry
I'm Still Yours ~Kutless
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Of What Does Faith Make Us Certain?
"FAITH...MAKES US CERTAIN of realities we do not see."
~Hebrews 11:1NEB
What realities can we be sure of? There is a popular notion about prayer which assumes that the thing asked for ought to be the object of faith -- "Lord, give me this or that," wherefore "this" and "that" become the realities. No. The Bible states the absolutes that we can be certain of: the character of God, his Love, his will that we be conformed to His Son's likeness, his sovereign control of all the universe. When faith latches on to those realities which we do not see with our eyes, it can never be confounded.
If it makes the thing asked for its object, faith itself will dissolve if the Lord's answer is no, or not yet, or wait.
"In Thee, O Lord do I put my trust. Let me never be put to confusion."
~Psalm 71:1 AV
~Devotional, by Elisabeth Elliot
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I'm Still Yours
~Kutless
If You washed away my vanity
If You took away my words
If all my world was swept away
Would You be enough for me?
Would my beating heart still sing?
If I lost it all
Would my hands stay lifted
To the God who gives and takes away
If You take it all
This life You've given,
Still my heart will sing to You
When my life is not what I expected
The plans I made have failed
When there's nothing left to steal me away
Will You be enough for me?
Will my broken heart still sing?
If I lost it all
Would my hands stay lifted
To the God who gives
And takes away?
If You take it all
This life You've given
Still my heart
Will sing to You
Even if You take it all away,
You’ll never let me go
Take it all away
But I still know
That I'm Yours
I'm still Yours
Oh, I'm Yours
I'm still Yours
I'm still Yours

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Friday's Faith
If We Ask God...?
As I began reading the scripture today that goes with the content of a devotional I was reading,
I cried...
This is the assurance we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us -- whatever we ask -- we know that we have what we asked of Him.
~I John 5:14-15
My heart cried out,
"But Lord, we asked for her safety amidst her trials and temptations. We trusted, we believed, and we stood fast on Your promises. Yet she was killed!"
In child-loss, many of us have such questions in which our faith is sorely tried. Sometimes our questions arise from the areas in which we inadvertently have allowed ourselves to be spoon-fed (or worse, allowed ourselves to have our ears tickled with what we wanted to hear) versus solid-food-fed.
After my tears, God showed me this devotional by Amy Carmichael in Edges of His Ways, starting with this scripture:
"I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the powers of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you."
~Luke 10:19
In this particular devotional, Carmichael remonstrates:
"Our Lord Jesus said this to the 70; and yet we know that all down the ages His servants have been hurt in a 1000 ways. So the words must mean, and we know they do mean, something that goes far deeper than bodily hurt, deeper even than disappointment -- that hardest hurt the mind can be asked to bear.
"It must mean that our spirits shall tread on serpents and scorpions, and have power over all the enemy. Nothing shall be allowed to sting our spirit, to poison it, or paralyze it. It is one of the magnificent promises of the Bible.
"We cannot take it too literally. There is no need to be overcome, whatever happens."
Then Carmichael ended her devotional with a scripture (of which I will use a newer translation):
"March on, my soul; be strong!"
~Judges 5:21
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This devotional reminded me of how God ensured my precious child's spirit would not be "poisoned" nor "paralyzed" as Amy Carmichael relates above by ensuring that she had the opportunity to return to Him before she was killed two days later:
One of the sweetest "gifts" I received "from" Merry Katherine after her death was a sign of the sure evidence that after our very soul-oriented talk with her on July 31, 2006 (two days before she was killed) her sweet heart and soul returned to the Lord. On 7/31, she had recorded a C.D. on our computer here at home in order to take it with her on her trip -- we discovered evidence on our computer of what she had recorded some time after her death. -- This first recording that she made had included, in essence, rebellious songs oriented around acting out with alcohol...
Later that same night, we had a soulful talk with her, painstakingly addressing her misconceptions about our disciplining of her... Two days later, on August 2, 2006 (before she went on her ill-fated trip in which she and two other teens would be killed later that evening), she came back by our house to gather some things for her trip. On that same day, Wednesday, August 2, 2006 (we found out months later), she had recorded a different C.D. -- one with some of the powerful Christian songs her older brother Rollin had given her at a spiritual turning point in her life that held great meaning for her soul. What a contrast in selection of music! What precious evidence left behind of her heart and soul softened toward her loving God!
God indeed allowed nothing to violate her soul's sure standing with Him!

Monday's Mourning Ministry
Blessings
~Laura Story
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops Is 45:8
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our Home,
It's not our Home!
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy?
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?

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Friday's Faith
The Truth Behind Our Shattered Beliefs
~by Tommy and Angie Prince
"In this world you WILL HAVE trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
~John 16:33b
Though God hates death, God even uses death, in ways mysterious to us, to further His Kingdom and bring Himself glory...
We talked in last weeks' posts of the Assumptive Beliefs we unwittingly fell for somewhere in our lifetime, only to have our Spiritual Foundation turned upside down when our baby girl was killed.
Many of today's false prophets tickle peoples' ears with what we want to hear --
"You are protected by God, you will be safe, you will prosper, you will be blessed..."
AND THEN YOU LOSE YOUR CHILD?
So you're left reeling, shaking your head, trying to grapple with these Assumptive Beliefs blown wide open.
If the church where you were going taught such "magical thinking," how then can you go back to church? Your experience has been totally opposite to such teachings. So how is the church going to help you now? Their teachings have failed you.
Jesus even prayed for His followers both then, for those with Him, and now, for those of us coming to know Him many generations later ~ He prayed for our protection as He knew He was leaving this earth. (~John 17)
But He also told us that as He was treated, so would we be treated...
(~John 15:18-21)
But this must not set well in the craw of the Tickle-the-Ears preachers...
I don't think I ever in all these many years heard a sermon about what evil horrors fell on each of the beloved Apostles Jesus had hand-chosen to follow Him and serve those He loved...
Let's take a walk through the Land of Suffering in the Valley of the Shadow of Death...
In Luke 12:14, we see the names of all the twelve that Jesus chose to be His disciples. We know what happened to the 12th one who rebelled and betrayed the Living Lord: Judas Iscariot after selling Jesus to the enemies that hated Him and wanted to kill him, had massive regret and chose to kill himself.
What about the other 11 Apostles?
Other familiar names from Jesus' followers:
James, the half-brother of Jesus was martyred. He was brought before the Sanhedrin and accused of blaspheming the law. He was brought to the pinnacle of the temple, thrown down, and was clubbed and stoned to death.
Barnabus was martyred in Salamis, Cyprus.
Titus died on the island of Crete.
Andrew was crucified in Patras.
Luke was crucified with Andrew in Patras.
Timothy was stoned to death after protesting festivities in honor of the pagan goddess Diana.
John Mark took the gospel to Alexandria, Egypt. While there, he enraged a mob by telling them that the pagan god Serapis was worthless. Mark was dragged by a rope around his neck through the streets by horses and was then imprisoned for the night. The following morning, the same ordeal was repeated until his death.
Paul was converted by a vision of Christ after Jesus had ascended to Heaven, so Paul never personally met Jesus, yet he declared to Timothy, "I KNOW HIM whom I have believed." He brought the gospel to the Jews and wrote and taught to all he could that one could have intimate spiritual intercourse with Christ the Lord. He also richly believed and taught of Jesus' ultimate victory and triumphant reign. Paul met his martyred death by being beheaded.
Perhaps if we had been steeped in this knowledge of what can actually happen to you EVEN, and especially, if you are a follower of our Lord, we would not be so shocked when we are subjected to the horrors of the Vile One, neither by what he does to our loved ones nor by what he might do to us.
Instead, we too often have been steeped in a version of Christ that has been re-sculpted (if not downright mutilated) into a
"Gospel" of "Consumer Benefits":
"Here's what you can get from God!"
We hear the "Tribal Speak" of language that is geared toward our getting "what we want" in life through God's "blessing us" because "God loves us." That message has infiltrated the church of today.
Because of this "Consumer Benefits" approach, there is no language and no explanation for the alternative.
This altered state of the church does not seem to be interested in ministering
- to the depths of one's soul, or
- to someone's damaged soul or spirit, or even
- to one's faulty assumptive beliefs that have been blown to bits by the death of his/her child.
IInstead, it has a preoccupation with the "Consumer Benefits" and "Sin-Management" of one's life. And there are streaks of paganism running throughout these messages and their presentations. There is a message that
"Somehow we need to be d-o-i-n-g something more to please God... What is wrong with me that God didn't do this? I could have done something to alter the course of God's feelings toward me..."
THAT IS PAGANISM, NOT FAITH.
That is why Tommy wrote the earlier post, "THERE IS NO ROOM IN THE INN FOR THE EMOTIONALLY WOUNDED."
Being emotionally wounded doesn't fit with the "Consumer Benefits" approach... unless of course you yield to the promptings of many to "get over" your grief, or at least HIDE YOUR GRIEF so that your pain "doesn't make God look bad," or at least that's the underlying message behind their words.
There is a strong push to "Stop Being Authentic," that we need to present a "Peachy-Keen" front to everyone so that we can be a good testimony to God.
-- What an insult to the Living Lord! --
King David, the psalmist, did not present "Peachy Keen" when he was hurting, and He was deemed by the scriptures as "a man after God's own heart."
Religious institutions are made up of rules and accepted roles and behaviors. Being injured or emotionally damaged is unacceptable to a religious institute.
"Failure" is not tolerated. They have defined the gospel as "God loves you and great things are going to happen to you."
Then there's no narrative for the alternative except the very message that Job's friends gave him (that we now know that God Himself was furious over) when they said,
"YOU'VE BROUGHT THESE PROBLEMS ON YOURSELF."
It's the difference in seeing God as a bunch of rules, roles and behaviors we keep -- which is flat, static, and dead, versus seeing God as alive, Spirit, dynamic, able to meet you in the deepest hell on this earth when you feel like a failure spiritually, and God says,
"YOU ARE MY BELOVED CHILD!"
"There's something wrong with our belief system when life 'happens' and our version of the gospel cuts us off from the Source."
~Dallas Willard
Yes, there's something wrong with our belief system when life "happens" and our version of the gospel cuts us off from the Source--our living, loving God who is there for us through thick and thin--even, and especially, through the deepest, darkest Valley of the Shadow of Death where we have lost our precious child.
Tommy says,
"I'm not mad at God as much as I am mad at WHAT I believed about God. THAT about did me in!"
