Welcome! I am Angie B. Prince, child of God, wife of Tommy, mother of 3, Grief and Trauma Life Coach, Psychotherapist, and Mother Grieving. On 8/2/2006, our precious 19-yr-old daughter Merry Katherine was killed along w/ 2 other teens via vehicular manslaughter. Here I share as we agonizingly process our grief and trauma. Email: MotherGrieving(at)gmail(dot)com. Coaching (Tommy or Angie): Call 865-548-4four3four / Counseling (Angie in TN) 865-604-9nine9two. I pray God will minister to you here.
Welcome! I am Angie B. Prince, child of God, wife of Tommy, mother of 3, psychotherapist and Mother Grieving.
Tommy and I met in graduate school in Atlanta, then married in 1979 and started a Christian Counseling/Coaching practice in Knoxville, TN where we still live. We have 1 daughter Merry Katherine, forever-19 in Heaven, 2 sons, Nathan (age 34) (wife Ashley), and Rollin (age 37) (wife Stephanie), and two granddaughters, Ellie and Penny.
In this blog, we process our grief over our Merry Katherine who was killed along with two other teens in a brutal car crash while on the way to the beach on 8/2/2006 (two teens survived). Having lost our daughter suddenly and violently on the cusp of launching her into adulthood, we were thrown into Complicated and Traumatic Grief. We share here our agonizing process of wading through the multiple twists and turns of shattered assumptions, challenged faith, traumatized body-soul-and-spirts, and devastated hearts. May our grief touch some of your own pain as we walk through this difficult but sacred ground together.
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Showing posts with label Loss of My Daughter. Show all posts
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In this journey we're on, we won't always be like we are. It was a very big deal I was able to go back to the barbershop and not get triggered. There was a time I did not want to go around the familiar, people who knew me and knew what I was dealing with. It was too painful. I would get triggered.
The barbershop I had gone to for years knew me well. They knew Merry Katherine. She would go with her daddy and her brothers when we would go get a hair cut. The barbers all knew her. When she was four years old, she had spilled a grape soda in there, and Daddy had to clean it up. They knew her. I couldn't handle their questions regarding how I was doing; it would have been too painful.
So, I went to other places for haircuts, places where no one knew me. But at some point, that scenario too hit its "critical mass" until I could no longer handle it either. When people DON'T know you, what's the first thing they ask... Yes,
"How many children do you have....?"
I got tired of telling each new barber or beautician my "story."
So this week, it was finally time. I could return to my old barber shop. They knew me. They know what happened to me. They still cut my married son's hair, so they've kept up with me through him. It was familiar. It was comfortable. And they respect my privacy. Meanwhile, they have had some bad things happen to them too. Life happens. And so we all just accept one another where we are and share fun stories.
It is a good sign. In some places in our lives, perhaps we really can get a part of our lives back, and we can go back to some old habits. It at least offers a little bit of hope this week.
Her room’s untouched; we must go through her things. . .
We can’t—such stark reality it brings.
God, please come along-side; give us Your hope;
There’s too much pain—we don’t know how to cope.
Throw Your life raft—we’re at th’ end of our rope!
Written today:
At 4 1/2 Years of Grief, Some Relief
Child-loss grief is very hard, complicated...
Pain transcendent over all; still life goes on,
Sadly....and admittedly truncated.
Stress hormones settled some
But still searching for equilibrium...
Still besieged with terror, dread, agitation,
Ongoing chaos, confusion, lack of control,
Emotions volatile, still mending holes in my soul,
Fatigue, lack of energy, feeling lost,
Still wondering who I am, and what to do now,
Surviving life a moment at a time: Grief's cost.
(To child-loss civilians, no way to explain
The effects of grief one has, when a child is slain...)
God soothes and comforts his child's troubled brow,
"I'll never leave you, nor forsake you,"
He assures me, even now...
By faith I say, "The Lord is my helper, I'll not be afraid,"
4 1/2 years, since in the ground, my baby was laid...
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"I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”
~John 16:33 NLT
We call Abraham "father" not because he got God's attention by living like a saint, but because God made something out of Abraham when he was a nobody. Isn't that what we've always read in Scripture, God saying to Abraham, "I set you up as father of many peoples"? Abraham was first named "father" and then became a father because he dared to trust God to do what only God could do: raise the dead to life, with a word make something out of nothing.
When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn't do but on what God said He would do. And so he was made father of a multitude of peoples. God Himself said to him, "You're going to have a big family, Abraham!"
~Romans 4:17-18 The Message (capitalizations of pronouns, mine)
...God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."
So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid..."
~Hebrews 13:5b-6a NIV
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You're Not Alone
~Meredith Andrews
I searched for love
When the night came,
And it closed in
I was alone
But You found me where I was hiding
And now I'll never, ever be the same
It was the sweetest voice that called my name.
Saying,
"You're Not Alone
For I am here!
Let me wipe away your every fear
My love, I've never left your side ~
I have seen you through the darkest night...
And I'm the one Who's loved you all your life
All of your life!
"You cry yourself to sleep
'Cause the hurt is real
and the pain cuts deep
All hope seems lost
With heartache your closest friend
And everyone else long gone
You've had to face the music on your own
But there is a sweeter song that calls you home.
Saying,
"You're not alone for I am here
Let me wipe away your every tear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
And I'm the One who's loved you all your life
All your life
Faithful and true FOREVER
Oh, My love will carry you
"You're not alone for I, I am here
Let me wipe away your every fear
Oh yeah
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
Your darkest night
And I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All of your life!"
Picture - thanks to http://rinklyrimes.blogspot.com
Poem - Two Years of Grief - Reality's Setting In - Angie Bennett Prince - 12/4/08
Poem - At 4 1/2 Years of Grief, Some Relief - Angie Bennett Prince - 3/20/2011
Scripture, Versions - NLT (New Living Translation), The Message, and (NIV) New International Version
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